chose a life......

In some way, when i was returning from can-cun after had a disagreement with my "best friend"...(not anymore), I was sitting in the bus looking the images not only in my mind althoug in my eyes, asking me why he drop me out our house and remember all the stuffs that did there wich some of them makes me laugh with that devil laughing, remember all the girls i fucked, all these guys I screw up, and all the pot i smoked, and also a little bit sad for all the things I left behind, suddenly I thought........Why should i chose a life........In some way, we are all addicts, hurt ourselves with that fucking sadomasoquist human costume.

It doesn´t matter if you are a junkie, it doesn´t matter if you are a porn addict or, even in the lesser cases you can be addict to cleanning, you can be addict to man or woman as well, there are some many fucking addictions that you can´t even count them, the truth is my dear friends, that all of us are addicts to something, and, who said that the addictions aren't good for us..............

WE ALL ARE ADDICTS TO HURT OURSELVES.....in some way, but, why we do this?.....that's a very easy answer.....we hurt ourselves because we just want to feel pain, to see if we are alive, to see if we can breathe again, to realize that we are not dead yet, because that´s our nature.

So, when I was in the bus on the way home, I realize that even when we don´t want hurt to anyone, we did or do, even because of our past, that is not so bad anyway, because when you fell hurt even if it is painful, you also realize that you are alive, that you soul still there and your heart still felling something.

So, I chose a life......and nobody can blame me for that.......even if my life is not the best enough....